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  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: 3 Doors Down
  • Drinking: Oolong Tea
It's been just over a year now since my mom passed. I kind of can't believe I've gone this long without her. I remember when I was thinking of how I was going to move out and get another apartment and she cosigned for me, I was thinking how I'd have her over often to tea/coffee or something. I would have made supper and had them over. I would have talked to her on the phone often. When I think of the memories I could have made this past year they seem more colourful and cozy. When I look back on the memories I have actually made this past year... they're cold and empty. I've run into so many bumps with my family.

I've never been close to my dad. It's all I can do to email him since talking on the phone would be very awkward. I haven't talked to my brother or sister since Christmas since my sister flipped out at me. I understand emotions were running high since it was the first Christmas without mom but a little restraint goes a long way. I figure out relationship is now going to go the way mine did with my dad... we're essentially not going to talk. I don't trust my sister any longer. I barely trust my dad but I'm torn because now he's the only parent I have left so I would feel horrible if I didn't make some kind of effort. My mom might not be here anymore but I feel like she is somewhere... or maybe it's the memory of her that is living on in me so I kind of do things for her that I think she would want me to do.

My goodness I haven't cried about my mom in a little while now. As soon as I started writing this I turned into a puddle! Maybe that's a good thing as that's a good indication I was stuffing my emotions away in a little box. The stress from that kind of behaviour is never good so maybe my mood will... improve a little? 

I just look back over my apartment and picture sitting on the couch with my mom and we're talking about work or cooking or we're watching a show she likes. I could see her trying to pet Mynx and I can almost hear her voice and see her expression as she'd look at the new arrangement of my furniture.

It seems so wrong that she's not here to do any of that. 

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Lynn
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
Canada
I'm a Help Desk support staff for a University. I like taking pictures and I would really like to get better at 1) taking pictures and 2) editing them. I don't usually edit my pictures but I'm getting there... What else. I like animals like cats and dogs and guinea pigs. I like a lot of music and I even try to play a little myself. I also like to read a lot and I occasionally try to write.

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Innocentium Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Many thanks for the deviantwatch. :)
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DarkSpace141 Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Student Photographer
Happy birthday!
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Blizzactivate Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Why thank you! :D
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DarkSpace141 Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Student Photographer
No problem!
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abyss1956 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014
Thanks a lot for +fav Heart 
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YUUNA-W Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Cat so cute~!
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Blizzactivate Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you so much :) I love my cat!
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YUUNA-W Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Yes!We are all loving cat people
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ehecod Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013   Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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Blizzactivate Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
np. I kind of like what you're doing. Keep it up! I want to see more!
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